Here, why don't you have a seat. Have some virtual herbal tea. Sorry, don't drink coffee around here, makes me sleepless, and I don't even live in Seattle anymore. Let me share some things with you.
"Any person, before being defeated by an enemy, is first defeated by himself. A weak-spirited or cowardly person, before hesitating at the wall of an obstacle, will shrink before his own shadow, frightened by his own imagination, and will be ultimately beaten by the traitor in his own heart."
Wow, ok, that one from Sensei is a little strict. I find myself sometimes defeated by own imagination. Have you ever experienced that? Then, I start thinking....Am I just seeking the easy way out? Am I just justifying myself? Have I given up before I have even tried? Which way should I advance based on faith? I think I think too much..haha! Faith is not a brain.
"In general, the greater people are, the less likely those near them will understand their greatness. Knowing this should help you become truly humble and seek to walk the road to further improvement."
ohhhh, gotta be more humble, big time! Open your eyes! Open your ears! Damn, gotta get that earwax out first :-)
"Every obstacle you meet in the course of your Buddhist practice is directly connected with your change of destiny."
Remind me of this please! Like every few minutes. Do I have ADD? :-)
"A defeat is rather the time to buildup your energies; you must make defeat the stepping off point for the victories that will follow. Being able to do this is the secret of life."
This is so positive. Of course, Sensei also said a victory could also be the seed of future defeat. Recently, I had a crushing defeat. I almost didn't make it out the other end. Change poison into medicine as the Gosho teachers. That is such a profound and liberating concept.
"Though repeatedly stepped on,
still it blossoms--
the smiling dandelion."
That is a great poem that sensei gave a women's division member. Have you ever experienced waves that just keep crashing on you? Maybe you thought you overcame something, but surprise....Maybe the reason why life keeps pounding us with the same thing is cuz for some of us, it just takes more time to really learn something. Read: stubborn? Anyway,get up and smile: "Buddhahood lies in continuing faith."